i deserve to be happy.

I deserve to be happy and I intend to be. I am battling my way through life trying to overcome the obstacles blocking my way and I try to do it with a smile. I try. I try so hard to smile my way through life. Most of the time, I fail but sometimes I could find reasons to smile even at the darkest points of my life.

Everybody deserves to be happy. I also deserve to be.

battling the storm

I could probably say that I am too weak already; too weak to battle the storms in my life. But do I have the right to give up? Some would probably say yes. But I refuse to give myself the right to give up. I am not giving myself any other choice but to go on and move forward.

This is just a simple storm. Someday, the sun will shine again.

serenity

I wish I could have stayed at Lake Balinsasayao last weekend. The place is so silent that it gives me a peace of mind and almost made me forget of all the worries that I had to face at school.

I love the place though its far.
I love the place though I couldn't get a network signal.
I love the place though I had to walk so far afterwards.
I love the place though my muscles are still sore from all the walking.
I love the place though it doesn't have internet connection.
I love the place though its far from civilization.
I love the place though I am mortally scared of the lake.
I love the place and I wish I could drown my worries there.

Someday, I will go back there.
Someday.

sharing what I learned.

I've had a lot of low moments in my life but those were never been this low. I guess I could say that I am now in the darkest part (so far) of my life. I did a lot of things that I shouldn't have done and did not do a lo of things that I should have done.

Somehow, I can say that I ruined my life and i am trying so hard to fix it. How ironic that I somebody who does not believe in second chances is now hoping to get a glimpse of a second chance.

One thing I learned though, and I wish to share to whoever is reading this blog, is that, we cannot blame life if it becomes complicated because sometimes it is our own actions that complicates life.

We reap what we sow. And that is all there is to it.